The Highs and Lows of Emotions

Today started and ended as a beautiful day. Jessica and Travis had their 28th week pregnancy 3d/4d ultrasound. Besides Shane and me, there was Aaron, Diane (Travis' mom), and my mom and stepdad witnessing this amazing feat of technology. We were able to see detail features of our Mason. He looks like he will have Jessica's cheeks, lips, and nose. Currently, he is in the breached position but should turn around in the next few weeks. But, his feet were literally poking him in his eyes. It was so cute.

Before we left though we noticed that Sam (our dog of 15 years) was very sick. She hasn't been doing well for a while now. She had heartworms and very bad arthritis. When we came home from the ultrasound we saw she wasn't getting any better so we called the vet. Tonight, we had to have her put to sleep. It was a very sad moment and we shed many tears but we felt we had done the best thing for her. She is no longer suffering. So though the day ended on a sad day it was still a beautiful day for we know that our Sam is in a better place.

Sam - June 1, 1999 to Sept 29, 2014

My Transformation

So for the last couple of months I have been working on improving myself. One of my goals was to lose weight. I had gained about 25 lbs in the last three years (about when I had began driving), and gained about 40 in the last 20 years. I have very little opportunity to exercise cause our tractor is going 24 hrs a day. I tried to exercise by doing squats and crunches in the truck but it messed my back up and i could hardly walk for a week. I wasn't really eating too bad. I would only eat fast food about once a week but i did have an addiction to cokes. I never ate more than 1200 calories a day. So 3 months ago i cut out simple carbs and sugars out of my diet. I ate high protein, low fat food and only water. I average about 800 calories a day. I started at 157 lbs and today i am 138. My goal is to reach 130 lbs.

On August 12th, I began another phase of my transformation. I went to a cosmetic surgeon to start the process of removing my tattoo. It has been a hugh source of low esteem the last 10 years (But i have had it for 23 years). I can never completely cover it up and constantly wonder what people think of me when they see it. The procedure was painful but it is worth it. After i did the first treatment, I could already feel my confidence increase.